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The heart is deceitful above all things

I have this friend who was on the recieving end of a spot of bad news tonight, not the worst kind of news but not the best either. My friend split up with this girl a long time ago, but intruth he never really got over her - which is sad on so many levels, pathetic sad right the way up to romantic sad. My friend has never really formed a proper lasting relationship with any other woman since he split up with her and, well, to be honest he’s been a bit of a bore to be around at times. These two star crossed lovers were still in touch until Christmas last year and since then he hasn’t heard from her, but he’s thought of her often. Anyway, tonight the poor fellow learned that the one he could never quite forget about is getting married in January.

It’s tough on the old boy because he finds himself entering his 30s with close friends scattered to the four winds and he’s no-one to call round with and share how he feels about all this. I think he realises now he maybe should have tried a bit harder and stopped clinging to the past all these years. I think this news will be good for him in the long run. But still, I get the impression he’s feeling a little adrift, that his last connection to that other world has been severed. (My friend isn’t as melodramatic as me, I like to dramatise this little scene with some flowery imagery.)

Anyway, my friend as almost reached the half way stage of his life and when he looks around he sees his friends happily married, some with children some without and equally happy. I think he wants to find some meaning in why he’s where he is but I don’t think he’ll find it - it just is what it is, somethings have no meaning and working that out is as important as it is with those things that do.

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(Has the music faded out yet? I can’t pad any more.)

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